Last year, playwright and novelist Ayad Akhtar—Disgraced, the brilliant Homeland Elegies, the upcoming Robert Downey Jr. AI play McNeal—gave the Whiting Awards keynote address on the theme of what is expected from artists.

He talked specifically about one of his mentors, theater director Andre Gregory, and the challenges that success presented. Yes, boo-hoo, every struggling creative out there says. To have such a problem. But Gregory realized, per Akhtar, that once an artist knows what people want from them, that can be a trap:

‘It’s hard,’ Andre said, ‘when you realize that they like you. It’s hard because you don’t want to lose that…’

Every writer faces this, even if they have not yet hit any of their milestones of success. Because it is difficult not to think of approval as the gateway to success. Seeking approval (of agents, editors, critics, audiences) can lead to caution. It’s inevitable, says Akhtar:

In some cases you will not intend to be in opposition; you will have simply followed your own sense of things, more or less blindly, hoping that, by doing what you want to do, need to do, it will result in something they will want and need, too. Sometimes you’ll be right. Sometimes you won’t…

The hard thing is to maintain that spark of confidence, which Akhtar calls “the insistent inclination of your affinity,” that lights your way forward, whether you end up being right or wrong. No matter what.